My Feet

So I went out Saturday night. I wore shoes that I knew didn't bother me when I had to walk a lot in them. Man was I wrong. My feet hurt so bad! Specially my right foot, the blister is 1 - 1.5 inches in length and .5 wide. I can't keep a band aide on because it is still producing that liquid that blisters makes. Also I have to use 2 band aides because of the size. It is really hard to wear shoes because of where it is. Showering is extremely painful and burned the entire time. Neoprene burns when I have tried to put that on it. The two photos above is the blister from my right foot. The picture below is my left foot. The left foot doesn't hurt that much. I feel like a wimp but it burns so bad. The picture's don't do my blisters justice. They look a lot different in person. Way more painful in person.

Zowie Bowie

I went a saw the cover band 'Zowie Bowie' last night at Red Rock Casino. They did all sorts of songs and stuff. They are great entertainers. They were fun to watch and listen to. I would definitely suggest seeing them if you ever get a chance.

My Life

In the beginning when I was a little girl, I wanted to be 6 feet tall and a school teacher. When got a little older I want to be famous. Not actress famous but famous for being the first person to do something, or for discovering some thing no one else has or was able to. When I was a freshman in High School I had all my course planned out for high school. As high school went on, I took classes harder than I planned or wanted.

I changed what I wanted to be many times. In high school I wanted to join the military, even a little of me today would like to. I told my mother and she thought I should be a nurse and join the Air Force because they treat woman the best (at that time).

I later changed it to being a fashion designer. Maybe a famous one but at least a dam good one. Then I wanted to be a dam good pattern maker. Maybe own my own business but be really good at it.

Then I lost my way. I didn't know what I want in life. I don't what I want to do. I can't even decide if I want kids or not. I see a new mom or a woman who is pregnant and I want that. One day I do, then I see a bad kid or kids and I am glad I don't have one.

Sometimes I want to get married. Sometimes I would like to have someone in my life who loves me and cares about me. Someone who knows me or at least tries to know me. Someone who wants to be a better person around me and I want to be a better person around them. I want to be someone I don't have to pretend around and they don't have to pretend around me. Someone I can be what I want around and vise verse.

Someone who can be there for me when I have to go through crap like my biopsy's. I don't know if that really exists or not. I don't know if there is anyone really out there I can trust.

I get men who hit on me who are married. Tell me that they want to be with me. And I think to myself really? How can they say this to me. Then I get men who are really young who hit on me and I think am I too old for them. Can I give them a chance? Then the men who are close to my age just want to be 'friends with benefits' , cheat on me, hit me, marry other women while we are together. I don't get it.

Can I trust? Can I be there or with someone (a man)? Will it ever happen for me? Can I do it if a man does come around who is trust worthy? Will I ever figure out what I want to do with my life? My job? My home? My love life (or lack there of)? Will I find love? Will I do anything with my life, or just be here?

The Love Guru

Saw ''The Love Guru' last night at Rave Motion Pictures at Town Center. It was very funny. It was off the wall. I laughed a lot in some parts and other parts where over my head. Justin Timberlake's character is great. As well a Mike Myers and some of the others. I recommend seeing the movie.

http://www.lovegurumovie.com/

The Incrediable Hulk

So I saw the movie The Incrediable Hulk last night. It was ok. I loved the Hulk as a child and I loved the last Hulk movie but this one was missing something. The best part was when the Starks character meet with the General about a team. Iron Man has the Captian America sheild in it. I believe they are filiming or making Captian America right now. So I am excited about the series. The Hulk was ok but you have to be a fan to see this movie. It won't turn you into one.

http://incrediblehulk.marvel.com/

FYI

The following posts are just stories. I don't know if they really happened or not.

1. The Open Toe Shoe Pledge
2. Stone
3. Enough
4. Chapstick
5. The Meaning of the Candy Cane
6. Rules of the House
7. To Those I love
8. Warning: Dirty Jokes

Sex and the City

I saw the movie 'Sex and the City' tonight. It was good, I don't understand how people cried. I get the forgive and more on part/ And the part about being true to who you are. I wouldn't see it unless you like the show.

http://www.sexandthecitymovie.com/

The Open Toe Shoe Plegde

Alright Ladies, it's that time of the year again.

Just a friendly reminder!! Please raise your big toes and repeat after me: (The Open Toed Shoe Pledge)...

As a member of the Cute Girl Sisterhood, I pledge to follow the Rules when I wear sandals and other open-toe shoes:I promise to always wear sandals that fit.

My toes will not hang over and touch the ground, nor will my heels spill over the backs.

And the sides and tops of my feet will not pudge out between the straps.

I will go polish-free or vow to keep the polish fresh, intact and chip-free. I will not cheat and just touch up my big toe.

I will sand down any mounds of skin before they turn hard and yellow. I will shave the hairs off my big toe.

I won't wear pantyhose even if my misinformed girlfriend, coworker, mother, sister tells me the toe seam really will stay under my toes if I tuck it there.

If a strap breaks, I won't duct-tape, pin, glue or tuck it back into place hoping it will stay put. I will get my shoe fixed or toss it.

I will not live in corn denial; rather I will lean on my good friend Dr. Scholl's if my feet need him.

I will resist the urge to buy jelly shoes at Payless for the low, low price of $4.99 even if my feet are small enough to fit into the kids' sizes.

This is out of concern for my safety, and the safety of others.

No one can walk properly when standing in a pool of sweat and I would hate to take someone down with me as I fall and break my ankle.

I will take my toe ring off toward the end of the day if my toes swell and begin to look like Vienna sausages.

If I have been privy to the magic that is Foot Soup, I will share that knowledge and experience with the non-initiated.

I will be brutally honest with my girlfriend/sister/coworker when she asks me if her feet are too ugly to wear sandals.

Someone has to tell her that her toes are as long as my fingers and no sandal makes creepy feet look good.

I will promise if I wear flip flops that I will ensure that they actually flip and flop, making the correct noise while walking and I will swear NOT to slide or drag my feet while wearing them.

I will promise to go my local beauty school at least once per season and have a real pedicure (they are about $10 and worth EVERY penny).

I will promise to throw away any white/off-white sandals that show signs of wear...nothing is tackier than dirty white sandals...

Don't keep this to yourself - pass it on to other sisters.

Stone

Two Friends were walking through the desert.

During some point of the journey, they had an argument; and one friend slapped the other one in the face.

The one who got slapped was hurt, but without saying anything wrote in the sand: 'Today my Best Friend slapped me in the face.'

They kept on walking, until they found an oasis, where they decided to take a bath.

The one who had been slapped got stuck in the mire and started drowning, but the friend saved him.

After he recovered from the near drowning, he wrote on a stone: 'Today my Best Friend saved my life'

The friend who has slapped and saved his best friend asked him, 'After I hurt you, you wrote in the sand and now, you write on a stone, why?'

The friend replied, 'When someone hurts us we should write it down in sand, where winds of forgiveness can erase it away.

But, when someone does something good for us, we must engrave it in stone where no wind can ever erase it'.

Learn to write your hurts in the sand and to carve your benefits in stone.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but then, an entire life to forget them.

Enough

Some time ago I overheard a mother and a daughter in their last moments together at the airport. They had announced the departure.

Standing near the security gate, they hugged and the mother said, “I love you and I wish you enough.”

The daughter replied, “Mom, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Mom.”

They kissed and the daughter left. The mother walked over to the window I where I was seated.

Standing their I could see she wanted and needed to cry. I tried not to intrude on her privacy, but she welcomed me in by asking, “Did you ever say good-bye to someone knowing it would be forever?”

“Yes, I have,” I replied. “Forgive me for asking, but why is this a forever good-bye?”

“I am old and she lives so far away. I have challenges ahead and the reality is the next trip back will be for my funeral”, she said.

“When you were saying good-bye, I heard you say, “I wish you enough. May I ask what that means?”She began to smile. “That's a wish that been handed down from other generations. My parents used to say it to everyone.”

She paused a moment and looked up as if trying to remember it in detail and she smiled even more.

“When we said. 'I wish you enough', we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with just enough; we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with just enough good things to sustain them.”

Then turning toward me, she shared the following as if she were reciting it from memory.

“I wish you enough sun to keep you attitude bright no matter how gray the day may appear. I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun even more. I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive and everlasting. I wish you enough pain so that even the smallest of joys in life may appear bigger. I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting. I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you posses. I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye.”

She then began to cry and walked away.

They say it takes only a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but an entire lifetime to forget them.

Take the time now to share 'enough' with those you love.

Chapstick

So, we had this 10 year old cat named Jack who just recently died. Jack was a great cat and the kids would carry him around and sit on him and nothing ever bothered him. He used to hang out and nap all day long on this mat in out bathroom.

Well we have 3 kids and at the time of this story they were 4 years old, 3 years old and 1 year old. The middle one is Eli. Eli really loves chapstick. LOVES it. He keep asking to use my chapstick and then losing it. So finally one day I showed him where in the bathroom I keep my chapstick and how he could use it whenever he wanted to but he needed to put it right back in the drawer when he was done.

Last year on Mother's Day, we were having a typical rush around and try to get ready for Church with everyone crying and carrying on. My two boys are fighting over the toy in the cereal box. I am trying to nurse my little one at the same time I am putting on my make-up. Everyone us a mess and everyone has long forgotten that this is wonderful day to honor me and the amazing job that is motherhood.

We finally have the older one and the baby loaded in the car and I am looking for Eli. I have searched everywhere and I finally round the corner to go into the bathroom. And there was Eli. he was applying my chapstick very carefully to Jack's . . . rear end. Eli looked right into my eyes and said “chapped.”

Noe if you have a cat, you know that their little butts do look pretty chapped. And frankly, Jack didn't seem to mind. And the only question to really ask at that point was whether it was the FIRST time Eli had done that tot he cat's behind to the hundredth.

And THAT is my favorite Mother's Day moment ever because reminds us that no matter how hard we try to civilize these glorious little creature, there will always be that day when you realize they've been using your chapstick on the cat's butt.- Unknown

The Meaning of the Candy Cane

Many years ago a candy maker wanted to make a candy that would symbolize the true meaning of Christmas – Jesus.The hard candy was shaped like a ‘J’ to represent that Jesus is our rock of all ages. The candy was made of white to stand for the pureness of Jesus. The red represents the blood that Jesus shed to save us from our sins.So the next time you see a candy cane take a minute to remember the real meaning of Christmas.

Rules of the House

If you sleep on it . . . make it up
If you wear it . . . hang it up
If you drop it . . . pick it up
If you eat out of it . . . wash it
If you spill it . . . wipe it up
If you turn it on . . . turn it off
If you open it . . . close it
If you move it . . . put it back
If you break it . . . repair it
If you empty it . . . fill it up
If it rings . . . answer it
If it howls . . . feed it
If it cries . . . love it

- Unknown

To Those I Love

When I am gone, just release me, let me go – so I can move into my afterglow.You mustn’t tie me down with your tears let’s be happy that we had so many years.I gave you my love, you can only guess how much you gave me in happiness.I thank you for the love you each have show, but now it’ time I traveled on alone.So grieve for me awhile, if grieve you must, then let your grief be comforted with trust.It’s only for a while that we must part, so bless the memories within your heart.And then, when you must come this way alone, I’ll greet you with a smile and a “Welcome Home."

- Unknown

Warning: Dirty Jokes

1. How do you piss off your partner when you are having sex? Call them up and tell them.

2. Word of the Day: Legs - now lets go spread the word.

3. What part of a man had the most manners? His penis . . . cause it stands up so a lady can sit down.

4. Beer $15.00, Take out dinner $20.00, Condoms $5.00, Finding out she swallows and has no gag reflex . . . Priceless! Fuck MasterCard, it pays to Discover!

5. CNN.com reports that gas stations will begin showing porn at the pumps so you can watch someone else get fucked while you get gas.

6. Encouraging words for the day: Never look down on someone unless they are giving you head.

7. Health Warning: Spooning leads to forking.

I Love . . . Part 13

Jícama

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Scientific classification
Kingdom:
Plantae
Division:
Magnoliophyta
Class:
Magnoliopsida
Order:
Fabales
Family:
Fabaceae
Subfamily:
Faboideae
Genus:
Pachyrhizus
Species:
P. erosus
Binomial name
Pachyrhizus erosus(L.) Urb.

Jícama (Spanish: hee-kah-mah, from Nahuatl xicamatl hee-kah-mahtl), also Mexican Potato and Mexican Turnip, is the name of a native Mexican and Central American vine, although the name most commonly refers to the plant's edible tuberous root. Jicama is one species in the genus Pachyrhizus that is commonly called yam bean, although the "yam bean" sometimes is another name for Jicama. The other, major species of yam beans are indigenous to other parts of the Americas.

Diced fresh jícama, seasoned with Tajín fruit seasoning. The jicama vine can reach a height of 4-5 metres given suitable support. Its root can attain lengths of up to 2 m and weigh up to 20 kilograms. The root's exterior is yellow and papery, while its inside is creamy white with a crisp texture that resembles raw potato or pear. The flavor is sweet and starchy, reminiscent of some apples, and it is usually eaten raw, sometimes with salt, lemon, or lime juice and powdered chili. It is also cooked in soups and stir-fried dishes. Cultivation of jícama has recently spread from the Americas to China and Southeast Asia where notable uses of raw jícama include popiah and salads such as yusheng and rojak. Jícama is popular in Vietnamese food, where it is called cây củ đậu (in northern Vietnam) or củ sắng or sắn nước (in southern Vietnam).

In contrast to the root, the remainder of the jícama plant is very poisonous; the seeds contain the toxin rotenone, which is used to poison insects and fish.

Jícama is high in carbohydrates in the form of dietary fiber. It is composed of 86-90% water; it contains only trace amounts of protein and lipids. Its sweet flavour comes from the oligofructose inulin (also called fructo-oligosaccharide).

Jícama should be stored dry, between 12°C and 16°C (53°F and 60°F); colder temperatures will damage the root. A fresh root stored at an appropriate temperature will keep for a month or two.

Kung Fu Panda

I saw Kung Fu Panda this last Friday night. It was a great movie. Typical with you know the ending. The Panda over comes his issues and his dreams come true. It a good movie for kids and adults. You all should go see it.

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0441773/

The Latest on My Health

I went to the doctor's yesterday. It was a dermatologist in Henderson. He was to check out so moles and spots on my skin. It took forever to get in. So, I have to have a biopsy on a spot from my left breast on July 1st. Then I have 2 spots from legs to be removed because of where they are, it is more of a health risk to have them.

I still wake up every morning with a headache. Some mornings I have nausea and others I am ok. Sometimes I have nausea all day and some days it is just n the morning.

All day and night my lower stomach is always hurting. Some times when you touch it or my clothes are too tight and other days all day long.

Some mornings I wake up and my back hurts.

I feel like an old lady. I don't get it. I eat all the time. Some days I crave sugar and others salt. I do exercise, I am an active person but I guess since I am now 30 I have to change how I exercise and what I do.

I still have issues with sleeping. I can't sleep the whole night. Sometimes I wake up every hour sometimes just a few times a night. Either way, I have issues with getting out of bed in the morning. This is effecting my job and I don't know what to do. I have tried going to bed earlier but it doesn't work. I tried going to bed later and it doesn't work. I have also tried sleeping pills and they just mess with me, they don't help at all.

I am going to try writing in my journal again and maybe reading the scriptures. Hopefully one of them buts me to sleep.

One thing about my sleeping issues I am having a lot of very crazy dreams and I am some what remembering them.

Oh well, this is life. You deal with it and move on.

Love is it Worth it?

Why do we need someone special in our life. Why do we need someone to love us and to care for us. Why do we need someone to care for and love. I don't get it. I don't know why we need this in our life. People shut down all the time and don't let anyone special in their lives. Maybe because of people hurting them in the past. Maybe because people they have trusted have hurt them in the past. There are so many reasons.

There are so many times I want to love someone. I want to be attracted to someone. Someone who treats me right. Someone who wants to love me. Someone who wants to care for me. But so far I am attracted to the wrong man. I am attracted to man who wants to hurt me, who wants to destroy me. I don't get it.

How do we change? How do we get over our issues and learn how to trust? How do learn how to love? How do you know if you are in love? How do you really know what love is?

Is love trust? honesty? kindness? passion?

How do you know what you want? How do you know what you are attracted to? How do you know what you need in your life?How do you know you will love a person?

Will love get you out of bed in the morning? Will love get you off your behind to get things done that you need to do? Will love make you want to do things for that person in your life? Will love make you want to better yourself for the person in your life? Will love help you get over your past? Will love help you deal with the people in your? Your family? Your friends?

I am so confused? I don't know what I want in my life? I don't know who I can trust? I don't know what to do?