As a member of Daughter's of the Nile we raise money for the Shriner's Children Hospitals and money to keep our foundation going. Well I am in the dance club called El Gizarettes in my Nile Temple (#139, Las Vegas, NV) and every year we have a fundraiser in the beginning of March (when we can get the Lodge for use) we call the "Mad Hatter's Tea". It is based on the Disney Alice in Wonderland movie Mad Hatter's Tea. Disney's version was the nicest, the other Alice in Wonderlands are very dark (like they are meant to be).
Well previous members and in previous years they have made a lot of decorations so now it takes a while to set everything up. Once it is decorated it is amazing looking.
Today after my job interview on my way home I decided to stop at the Salvation Army store. I have gotten some great things (and very beautiful things) at this store before. It is the one off Stephanie & Warm Springs. It is a great location. There is a Goodwill store across the street (I don't like it as much but still a good thrift store). I went in to look for tea pots and really large coffee mugs with matching saucers. When the lady cashier was checking me out, she made a comment about all the teapots I was getting (like 3 or 4). I told her why I was getting them and she told me she would give me a deal on them and to go ahead and get a few more. So I went back and got 2 more. I couldn't believe it, I thanked her a lot. I told her she just made my day. I called my friend as soon as I got to the car and told her what happen. She was excited too (she is a Nile dancer with me). I was so happy. I have a person motto of be kind/good to others and they will be kind/good to you. This doesn't mean that the person I am being good to right then and there will be good to me but someone else down the line will. Often for no reason at all.
People are good and do have good hearts out there. It is so great when you get to see it.
By the way, our next Mad Hatter's Tea is March 1st, 2009 at the Masonic Memorial Temple off Rancho & the 95 (Mesquite address, Las Vegas, NV). It will start at 2 pm for all who want to come. Our El Gizarette's meeting on Wednesday, we will be deciding the costs, etc. Wear a hat, we do have a hat parade & prizes for the hats.
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Roommates
I currently have a 2 bed & 2 bath apartment. The bed & bath are attached to each other with the living room, kitchen, etc in the center (the roommate set up). It is an older complex. Like any apartment complex it has good and bad people there. I don't really talk to any of my neighbors.
My most recent roommate had to leave because of finicial issues (and being in jail). So now I am stuck again, with no one in there and no one to split rent and utlities with. He owes me around $800.00 and has given me $250.00 of it. I have a horrible feeling I'm not going to see much else but we need to hope.
I don't know what I am going to do. I need a new roommate. I can barely afford my half of the bills with no job, I know I can't afford the whole thing.
So if you all know anyone who is a non-smoker and perferrably doesn't drink and no drugs who needs a place to stay (my lease is up in April) let me know.
My most recent roommate had to leave because of finicial issues (and being in jail). So now I am stuck again, with no one in there and no one to split rent and utlities with. He owes me around $800.00 and has given me $250.00 of it. I have a horrible feeling I'm not going to see much else but we need to hope.
I don't know what I am going to do. I need a new roommate. I can barely afford my half of the bills with no job, I know I can't afford the whole thing.
So if you all know anyone who is a non-smoker and perferrably doesn't drink and no drugs who needs a place to stay (my lease is up in April) let me know.
Job Interview
I had a job interview today at Cleint Developement Services. They are an out sourced called center. They mainly focus on customer service (inbound calls) but do out bound calls too. I had already taken 3 tests online. They felt like I was back in school again, like I was taking the SAT's again. Then I went in today. Everyone was real nice and friendly. My interviewing process was suppose to start at 2:30 but people got stuck in meetings etc. I was there till 5 pm. I interviewed with 2 people, a woman and then a man. They each had a packet they had to go though with me (11 behavior questions each). They tried to make it easy going as possible but I felt like was being interview for the FBI with all the questions (22 required including there own). It was very nerve racting. The place seems like a really great place to work. I hope I get it. The training class starts on November 10th. So, I will find something out within a week.
Everyone, please keep your fingers crossed and me in your prayers. I really really need a job.
Everyone, please keep your fingers crossed and me in your prayers. I really really need a job.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Life 4
Life is very interesting, how people come in and out of our lives. How people remember us though years of never seeing or speaking to them. How people forget us at that same time.
How people make friends, keep friends and stay friends. What friends do for each other and go through together.
Should I be hurt or offended if an old friend doesn't remember me or I don't remember an old friend should I feel bad.
How many people actually keep in touch with old friends these days. I know though sites like facebook.com and myspace.com it has made it easier to let friends know what is going on in your life and in their lives. Just as long as we update your pages on these sites.
With friend sites it is harder to find friends with common names. It can also be hard to get a hold of friends who have really high security blocks on their pages (which I don't understand).
This includes family and is not limited to just friends. I am curious how people become friends, what is it about the other person that attacks you to them to become friends. To want to get to know each other better, to spend time together, do things together and so forth. Your family is your family and there's not much you can do about it. But this curiosity also goes for people wanting to start relationships, start their own family. What attacks you to the other person, to want to have children with them, to spend your life with them.
I don't know if I will ever understand but it would be interesting to see what people have to say.
How people make friends, keep friends and stay friends. What friends do for each other and go through together.
Should I be hurt or offended if an old friend doesn't remember me or I don't remember an old friend should I feel bad.
How many people actually keep in touch with old friends these days. I know though sites like facebook.com and myspace.com it has made it easier to let friends know what is going on in your life and in their lives. Just as long as we update your pages on these sites.
With friend sites it is harder to find friends with common names. It can also be hard to get a hold of friends who have really high security blocks on their pages (which I don't understand).
This includes family and is not limited to just friends. I am curious how people become friends, what is it about the other person that attacks you to them to become friends. To want to get to know each other better, to spend time together, do things together and so forth. Your family is your family and there's not much you can do about it. But this curiosity also goes for people wanting to start relationships, start their own family. What attacks you to the other person, to want to have children with them, to spend your life with them.
I don't know if I will ever understand but it would be interesting to see what people have to say.
Monday, October 27, 2008
Life 3
So life is interesting. As I have spent time with other people's families and see how they interacted with each, I learn what I like about families and don't like about families. I see how close families are, how they love each other and how they interact with each other. It is all very interesting to me.
My own family doesn't get along very well. I grew up seeing my father only be nice to people if he thought they could do something for him or for the family. I saw an angry man who loved to hit those around him. I saw an angry and scared mother who would lock herself in her room. She would go to work to escape home. She would also take her anger out on us children.
My father would take things out on me that my younger siblings did or one of the family pets did. I was blamed for a lot of things and many of them I didn't understand.
What I have figured out in life so far and I am surely no expert is we are who we are and we can't be anything else. Many of us can change who we are to who we want to be through hard work and determination. We will get what we want out of life also with lots of hard work and determination. We may have set backs and feel like we are not moving forward sometimes. I want you to know this, we will always move in the direction we want to go, it may be slow sometimes but you will always get to the end as long as you have determination and work hard. I hope this makes since to everyone my random babbling.
My own family doesn't get along very well. I grew up seeing my father only be nice to people if he thought they could do something for him or for the family. I saw an angry man who loved to hit those around him. I saw an angry and scared mother who would lock herself in her room. She would go to work to escape home. She would also take her anger out on us children.
My father would take things out on me that my younger siblings did or one of the family pets did. I was blamed for a lot of things and many of them I didn't understand.
What I have figured out in life so far and I am surely no expert is we are who we are and we can't be anything else. Many of us can change who we are to who we want to be through hard work and determination. We will get what we want out of life also with lots of hard work and determination. We may have set backs and feel like we are not moving forward sometimes. I want you to know this, we will always move in the direction we want to go, it may be slow sometimes but you will always get to the end as long as you have determination and work hard. I hope this makes since to everyone my random babbling.
The Haunted House
So the Daughters of the Nile Haunted House fundraiser was last night. It was at the Masonic Memorial Temple. There were a lot new people who attended who are not in the Masonic family. It was nice to see. But it wasn't enough (we made around $13 hundred or so). We didn't make as much as last year and we needed to make more (we needed $4k and last year we made $2k).
It took all day to get everything taken down, put away, packed in the truck (van & trailer) and cleaned up. I was so tried when we were done today.
When I got home, I layed in bed for a while. Then I took an amazing hot shower. It felt so good.
We had a lot of candy left over. We trashed a lot of decorations that the person in charge didn't want to keep anymore as well as gave a bunch of structural items we were trash away.
It has been a very eventual week between setting up for the haunted house event, getting sick (my chron's disease acting up), taking care of different people's homes and staying at different people's homes, with little sleep, trying to find a job, get rid of a roommate, I am so happy this week is over.
Now we need to come up with another fund raiser that won't interfer with other fund raisers going on within the Daughters of the Nile group and that will make money.
Daughters of the Nile are women who are related to Shriners. We are around to earn money to help the Shriner's Children's Hospitals. The one my Temple is assigned to is the Salt Lake City, UT hospital. If you have any ideas, let me know.
It took all day to get everything taken down, put away, packed in the truck (van & trailer) and cleaned up. I was so tried when we were done today.
When I got home, I layed in bed for a while. Then I took an amazing hot shower. It felt so good.
We had a lot of candy left over. We trashed a lot of decorations that the person in charge didn't want to keep anymore as well as gave a bunch of structural items we were trash away.
It has been a very eventual week between setting up for the haunted house event, getting sick (my chron's disease acting up), taking care of different people's homes and staying at different people's homes, with little sleep, trying to find a job, get rid of a roommate, I am so happy this week is over.
Now we need to come up with another fund raiser that won't interfer with other fund raisers going on within the Daughters of the Nile group and that will make money.
Daughters of the Nile are women who are related to Shriners. We are around to earn money to help the Shriner's Children's Hospitals. The one my Temple is assigned to is the Salt Lake City, UT hospital. If you have any ideas, let me know.
Monday, October 20, 2008
Haunted House
I am working on building a Haunted House at the MMT building. It is a fundraiser for the Shriner Hospitals and Daughters of the Nile. It is Saturday October 25th, 2008 from 5 PM to 9 PM. It is like $4.00 for kids under 12 and $8.00 for everyone else (I might be wrong about the prices but I think I am correct).
There will lots of candy, cake walk, hay maze, ghost toss, fishing booth, photo booth, food and a haunted house to walk through. Oh yeah, there will also be a graveyard.
The MMT - Masonic Memorial Temple is the Masonic building off Rancho and the 95. The exact address is 2200 W Mesquite Ave, Las Vegas, NV 89106. It is in the Multi-purpose room.
I hope to see you all there.
There will lots of candy, cake walk, hay maze, ghost toss, fishing booth, photo booth, food and a haunted house to walk through. Oh yeah, there will also be a graveyard.
The MMT - Masonic Memorial Temple is the Masonic building off Rancho and the 95. The exact address is 2200 W Mesquite Ave, Las Vegas, NV 89106. It is in the Multi-purpose room.
I hope to see you all there.
Saturday, October 18, 2008
If you Think . . .
If you think you are strong then be strong
If you think you are happy then you are happy
If you think you are beautiful then you are beautiful
If you think before you act then you . . .
If you think you are something or can be something than do everything in your power, might, strength and will to do so.
No matter what others say, what others do, what others see, you are who you think you are and no one can say any different.
If you think you are happy then you are happy
If you think you are beautiful then you are beautiful
If you think before you act then you . . .
If you think you are something or can be something than do everything in your power, might, strength and will to do so.
No matter what others say, what others do, what others see, you are who you think you are and no one can say any different.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
That's Life
Many people think that I am lucky because my parents didn't divorce until I was a senior in high school. Many people think that I am lucky because I was raised in the LDS church. I don't agree with either thoughts.
Yes, I was raised in the LDS church. When I was 12 my mother stopped going to church. I don't know how old I was when my father stopped going to church. My parents still made us kids go every week to some of church and during the week too. My father thought it would be a good punishment not to allow me to go to Young Women's meetings during the week because of something I did that he thought was bad. He also thought it would be great to also embrass me by calling the Young Woman's President over (the adult over the whole group) and tell her in person what I had did wrong and why I couldn't go to Young Women's for several months.
I was grounded for one thing or another my entire sophmore year in high school. I tried to be my own person but I was beat down every time I tried to come out of my shell. Yes, I mean beat. My parents like to hit me specially my father.
I tried to kill myself for the first time when I was 5. I tried really a lot when I was in the 8th grade. Then off an on again till I was 16. I tried taking pills, cutting myself, drowning myself and other things to. Nothing worked. I felt like a loser because I couldn't suceed at anything including killing myself. Then one day someone said, killing your self is wrong, it is a special sin. I was like whatever, but then they said 'they win' when you kill yourself. I wasn't about to let that happen. I wasn't going to let them win, him win.
So I no longer thought about killing myself but killing him. I never acted upon my thoughts. I was in church when the words that stopped me from hurting myself were said. The LDS church saved my life on more than one time.
I will never deny the church or how it has helped over my life. Right now I don't feel it is the right place for me. I do try to go every now and then. I would like to start going every Sunday. But I am not ready to start being a Temple Worthy Woman just yet. I need to sort though some personal things first.
I have major issues with trusting people. Specially men but I also don't count out women in this group. Because of my lovly father and mother I have major issues trusting anyone. I don't know what to do sometimes. I have gone to counceling on an off for many years now. Right now I am doing this on my own. Sometimes it is just what you need to do.
Yes, I was raised in the LDS church. When I was 12 my mother stopped going to church. I don't know how old I was when my father stopped going to church. My parents still made us kids go every week to some of church and during the week too. My father thought it would be a good punishment not to allow me to go to Young Women's meetings during the week because of something I did that he thought was bad. He also thought it would be great to also embrass me by calling the Young Woman's President over (the adult over the whole group) and tell her in person what I had did wrong and why I couldn't go to Young Women's for several months.
I was grounded for one thing or another my entire sophmore year in high school. I tried to be my own person but I was beat down every time I tried to come out of my shell. Yes, I mean beat. My parents like to hit me specially my father.
I tried to kill myself for the first time when I was 5. I tried really a lot when I was in the 8th grade. Then off an on again till I was 16. I tried taking pills, cutting myself, drowning myself and other things to. Nothing worked. I felt like a loser because I couldn't suceed at anything including killing myself. Then one day someone said, killing your self is wrong, it is a special sin. I was like whatever, but then they said 'they win' when you kill yourself. I wasn't about to let that happen. I wasn't going to let them win, him win.
So I no longer thought about killing myself but killing him. I never acted upon my thoughts. I was in church when the words that stopped me from hurting myself were said. The LDS church saved my life on more than one time.
I will never deny the church or how it has helped over my life. Right now I don't feel it is the right place for me. I do try to go every now and then. I would like to start going every Sunday. But I am not ready to start being a Temple Worthy Woman just yet. I need to sort though some personal things first.
I have major issues with trusting people. Specially men but I also don't count out women in this group. Because of my lovly father and mother I have major issues trusting anyone. I don't know what to do sometimes. I have gone to counceling on an off for many years now. Right now I am doing this on my own. Sometimes it is just what you need to do.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Headaches
I hate headaches. I don't like getting them. I get them a lot. They get so bad sometimes I want to give up on life. I want to give up on everything. I have had to go to the hospital a few times in my life because of them. I have had prescriptions before but currently do not. I have to rely on over the counter stuff which doesn't always help. I don't have health insurance it anymore so I can't go to the doctor's office or hospital or anything for help. It puts me in a tough spot. I don't know what to do. I mix things like Tylenol and ibuprofen. I don't do aspirin and ibuprofen and stuff together. Ugg . . . life is a pain in the ass.
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Roommates
Roommates drive me crazy. I like living alone. I wish I had a good paying job right now so that I can do it again. I don't like having to depend on someone else for a place to live.
I do like that they help with the bills so it is not as much out of my pocket every month. They do make things cheaper for me.
I don't know if it is worth it anymore to have one.
I do like that they help with the bills so it is not as much out of my pocket every month. They do make things cheaper for me.
I don't know if it is worth it anymore to have one.
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Uggg . . .
So I have been trying some dating websites. I don't want to date co-workers and when I was active in the LDS church most of the men were scared of me or something. Since I moved here in 2001 till now I have never been asked out by an LDS man.
A few of the sites are LDS single sites. 1 you have to pay for and I don't have the money. Plus the site doesn't look very up to date (worth the money). I don't have the money to check out eharmony or match.com.
So what I have discovered, there are a lot of lonely men. The men are widows, live in other countries, are 10 + years older than me and or recently divorced and don't know what to do.
I did try non-LDS single sites too. Basically the same thing. Not worth my time. I don't know what to do anymore. It is very annoying. I'm 31 really why is a 65 year old man thinking its ok to 'try to get to know me better'?
A few of the sites are LDS single sites. 1 you have to pay for and I don't have the money. Plus the site doesn't look very up to date (worth the money). I don't have the money to check out eharmony or match.com.
So what I have discovered, there are a lot of lonely men. The men are widows, live in other countries, are 10 + years older than me and or recently divorced and don't know what to do.
I did try non-LDS single sites too. Basically the same thing. Not worth my time. I don't know what to do anymore. It is very annoying. I'm 31 really why is a 65 year old man thinking its ok to 'try to get to know me better'?
Sunday, October 5, 2008
I Love . . . Part 20
I do like some television. My top are as listed but not necessarily in that order:
1. True Blood
2. Law & Order
3. How I Meet Your Mother
4. Entourage
5. Dead Zone (with Michael Anthony Hall)
6. Medium
7. Ghost Whisper (yes, I said it)
8. Inuyasha
9. Criminal Minds
10. Numbers
1. True Blood
2. Law & Order
3. How I Meet Your Mother
4. Entourage
5. Dead Zone (with Michael Anthony Hall)
6. Medium
7. Ghost Whisper (yes, I said it)
8. Inuyasha
9. Criminal Minds
10. Numbers
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Interesting Thoughts
The past is the past and there is nothing we can do about the past. Everyone has a past. All that matters is what we do now. What we do with the future, what we do with the present is all that matters.
If you do good, be positive and try to be happy no matter what, good things will happen to you.
Karma is a b&*^%.
Do unto others as you would have done unto you.
Treat everyone with respect and you will be respected.
Everything has its beauty but not everyone sees it.
If you do good, be positive and try to be happy no matter what, good things will happen to you.
Karma is a b&*^%.
Do unto others as you would have done unto you.
Treat everyone with respect and you will be respected.
Everything has its beauty but not everyone sees it.
Ok, Again
So many emotions, so little time to deal with it. But which feelings should I deal with and which ones should I let go. I have been having a lot of dreams. Most of them are crazy, weird and make no sense. Some of them are very scary and would be a great horror flicks. Most I don't remember but would like to. Mainly because they would be great movies and stories. I also have been thinking about old friends and wondering what happened to my old friends. If they were ever really friends or people just being nice to me. I have also been thinking about what I went to school for, what I do now. I haven been thinking about being unemployed and the need for health insurance. Where should I live? Stay here or move back to California. If I go back to California, should I go back to Long Beach, go to Bakersfield with my brother or go to Sacramento/Carmichael area with my mother and the Loveridges. I still have been getting a lot of headaches. I sleep all day and I am up all night. I don't like tv but I need the noise. I feel to alone with out the noise. Sometimes I have 2 tv's on for the noise. I like making things but does anyone really like what I make or are they just being nice saying the things I make are nice. I make a lot of journals and picture books. All on different subjects. I like making them, it will forever be on going projects. I also have a lot of 1/2 done projects. I wonder if I will ever finish them. I wonder if I will ever have a good and decent job. Also my back has been bothering me a lot. Hurting a lot. I also have started griding my teeth, again. I have been getting into the new show 'True Blood' on HBO. I still wonder who I am an what I want to do with my life. I know one day I will be happy and I will know what to do. I will have goals again and I will go some where.
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