Zappos.com Party

So Zappos.com had there annual Vendor Party on Sunday night. It was at the nightclub Rain in the Palms. There was rumors of famous people walking around. I didn't see them.

There was also a private pool with nice sitting and 4 penguins swimming and hanging around. There was lots of free alcohol every where. Including girls dressed up like Snow Queens passing out vodka and snow cones covered in vodka. I was a woman who looked about 7 months pregnant pouring vodka on snow cones. I thought that was a very weird site.

Lots of people drunk. Lots of people dressed up looking good. Lots of people surprised to see me, happy to see me (which was nice) and lots of people who didn't know I don't work at Zappos anymore. There was lots of rumors of why I was fired and how I got in. But I didn't say how I got in and told people what I was told when I was fired, which was 'you are not good enough'.

My friend Sherry went with me. I hope I didn't bore her to much. I had fun, I hope she fun.

Hellboy II: The Golden Army

I saw Hellboy II on Saturday night. It was good but you have to be a Hellboy fan. I think they could have done more with it. More with the Army, more with the wife/fire woman. The fish man didn't walk as fluid as the first movie. Which I highly missed. His coloring was also different than the first movie. But thats Hollywood for you.

My New Blog

Hello Everyone,

I created a new blog:

http://billiemariedesigns.blogspot.com/

I want you all to check it out. I only have a welcome post on there right now but I will have more posts very soon.

Things I want to do . . .

Once I get a job again and I am caught up on my bills etc. I am going to purchase the movie The Hammer. But I have to find out where it is sold. I think it is only sold on Amazon right now, maybe Blockbuster or Fry's Electronics. I also will get jeans that fit me an some shirts. Maybe a new dress. We will see what my new job entails.

Things I am trying to get done now:

1. A Bankruptcy lawyer
2. A Work Out plan (I really need to lose weight)
3. Clean out my apartment (go through everything, I have moved so many times and just stuffed everything into storage, I don't know what I have anymore. I am going through stuff to donate to charity and to throw in the trash what I don't need. My apartment isn't all that big).
4. Paint furniture (hopefully I can sell something one day)
5. Find a new job
6. Do my house sitting jobs
7. Things I can't talk about openly just yet
8. Get stuff together for Nile, Dancers (I'm the President, I have to go through the papers and clean it up, also get stuff together for Mad Hatter's Tea), Georgia (Haunted House)
9. Write a cook book & craft book (hopefully to sell one day)

The Dark Knight (The New Batman Movie)

I saw the Dark Knight this last Friday night. I loved it. The Joker was amazing! I loved how they created 2 Face but I think they didn't show his temper enough. I loved how Batman was done. He is not a hero or a villan. Christian Bail is growing on me as an actor. I generally think he is over rated and I don't like his teeth/mouth area. It is to big and wide and white. I also liked how they showed the Scarecrow was still alive. I also liked the pretend Batman's with guns. It really throws you off. I also thought it was amazing that Emma Thompson was involved with this movie. I love her as an actor and a producer.

I think it was funny how the History Channel did a show on Batman and the history or Batman. It was very interesting. I would check it out. http://www.history.com/search.do?searchText=Batman

Well anyways, if you are or are not a Batman fan this movie is still worth seeing. It is worth owning too. http://thedarkknight.warnerbros.com/

I Think . . .

I think I will be single forever. I think I will never have children. I think I will never get married. I think I will never find love. I think I will have to work for the rest of my life. I think I am only going to get bigger. I don't know if I will ever be able to trust a man, ever. I think if I disappeared no one would notice.

Oh well, that's life.

The Latest

Ok, I went to the doctor's yesterday. I saw the sleep doctor who said my sleep was fine. That it is likely I have depression (really bad). Big shocker right.

I went to my primary doctor's office yesterday too. My appointment was at 3:45 pm I got into an examine room at 5:30 an I saw the doctor at 6:30 PM. I think it is time to change. This is a horrible way to treat people. Almost the whole staff was gone before I even got into the examine room. He is a good doctor once you get in to see him but everything else is horrible.

I am still gaining weight. I have changed my diet, changed how much and what I eat and nothing is helping.

Anyways, my sleep doctor called my primary doctor worried about me because of my depression. I am now on a medication. It will take a few weeks for it to work. Last night I was afraid I was coming undone at the seems. To many things are going on in my life right now. I don't think I can handle anything else.

I am . . . Part 2

Cancer


The Crab


Modality: CardinalElement: WaterRuler: the Moon Season: Summer4th Sign of Zodiac

Metal: SilverStone: Pearl

OpalColor: White, Yellow

Anatomy: Breasts, stomach

Keywords: gentle, conservative, feeling, nurturing, defensive, contemplative.

Comparison with the Cancer symbol, the Crab:
A crab is able to walk or run sideways. Similarly, Cancer natives can sometimes "move about" in life, in a figurative sense, in an indirect manner. The crab's body is covered by a carapace (shell). Cancer natives are self-protective and sensitive, and often retreat into themselves when hurt. Crabs are able to resist changes in the environment, thereby protecting themselves from hostile elements in various habitats. Similarly, Cancer natives are thought to avoid too much change, and to be on the defensive. Crabs have "complex behavior patterns" (1). The inner world of Cancer natives is thought to be rather quirky and complex. Some crabs "conceal themselves by decorating their bodies with plants and animals" (2). Cancer natives tend to try to blend in with their environments, preferring not to make a big splash in life.

Cancer's glyph, or symbol, may represent the breasts as a symbol of the nurturing qualities of the sign.

Sun in Cancer


(The Sun is in Cancer from June 21-22 to July 22-23, depending on the year).


Sun in Cancer natives have a strong survival instinct. They are protective of those they care about, and of themselves too. They are often quite reticent about sharing their inner selves to the rest of the world, and are often caught up in reminisce.


Cancers have a reputation for moodiness, although this trait is most evident when the Moon is in Cancer. Cancer needs roots. They resist change to an extent, and concern themselves about being secure and safe in most everything they do.


Cancers can be quite intrigued by objects with history attached to them — antiques, photos, souvenirs, and the like.


Cancer is a very sensitive sign, and they don't always appreciate it when you are blunt with them. Their reactions to hurt will depend on how thick a shell they have developed. Most Cancers react by withdrawing or retreating. Some have developed an ability to manipulate others to get what they want. They avoid direct confrontations almost as a rule.



Cancers are, in fact, quite yielding and soft when you have them in the right mood. They are one of the more hospitable signs of the zodiac. Sure, they can be touchy and indirect, but they are also very dependable, caring souls.

Moon in Cancer


This is the most subjective position of the Moon. The Moon is "at home" in the sign of Cancer, as the Moon is the natural ruler of the sign.


Moon in Cancer natives have a large potential to be able to get in touch with the feelings and moods of others. Often, they are quite wrapped up in themselves. Their memories of the past are outstanding, especially for all things emotional. Moon in Cancer people are never detached—they cling to things, their home, and people they care for. They seek out security and familiarity in all they do. They look for peace and quiet. Their attachment to all that is safe means they are a little leery of change.


These peace-loving souls dislike superficiality in all of its forms. They are devoted and accommodating. The insecure ones accumulate things in an attempt to feel secure.
Because of their strong attachment to, and memory of, the past, others may complain that Moon in Cancer natives tend to whip a dead horse. They may dwell on hurts long after everyone else has moved on. When they feel they have been taken for granted (which may be often!), they don't always confront others directly. This is when they can use roundabout ways to get your attention. In fact, these natives, when they are insecure, can become quite manipulative. They can also be victims of habit.


These people can have a hard time compartmentalizing their lives, simply because their watery Moon tends to know no boundaries. Sometimes, as a result, they may act irrationally.
One of the most delightful characteristics of Moon in Cancer people is their loony sense of humor. These people can be extraordinarily funny. Their moodiness can baffle others, but their unique outlook on life is something most people can appreciate.


When treated with tenderness and understanding, Moon in Cancer natives return the favor with warmth and protection. Give them security, and you'll take the crabbiness out of the Crab, at least for awhile.


These people are wonderfully dependable overall, despite their occasional mood swings. Make a friend of Moon in Cancer, and you will be taken care of for life.



Mercury in Cancer


These people communicate with feeling, conveying a sensitive, withdrawn, and thoughtful nature to the people they interact with. If this is the only personal planet in Cancer in their chart, they may come across as more personal and sensitive than they actually are.


No matter how free-spirited the rest of their natal charts may be, Mercury in Cancer people can be very subjective and personal, or they opt not to talk at all. They are slow to respond at times, giving others the impression that they are deep thinkers. They probably are just that. Cancer is a meditative and reflective sign. Still, Mercury in Cancer people are much faster at forming opinions and making decisions than they appear. Because they listen so well to others, this speed is not obvious.


You can bet that Mercury in Cancer natives will remember almost anything — from their own past, to your conversation two months ago. You might notice their memory is a little skewed in the direction of emotion. The truth is, these people remember the mood surrounding all the moments they have stored in their memory. This is because they "feel you out" when you are talking to them. The words are not as important to them as the emotions behind them.
Cancer communicators come across as gentle, intuitive, and sentimental. Sometimes, they can appear quite defensive, as they can take things quite personally. They make you feel very warm and protected. Sometimes it is in their voice (solid yet soothing); and often it is in the message they are giving. Sometimes Cancer communicators can come across as if they are hiding something, which can get them into more trouble than they perhaps deserve.


Mercury in Cancer retains a lot of information, and learns best when they feel emotionally balanced. They prefer to focus their concentration on subjects, and approach problems in a step-by-step manner, "feeling out" an answer. This position gives the gift of rhythm and beat.
No matter what their Sun sign (and it can only be Gemini, Cancer, or Leo), Cancer communicators seem to have feelers. They pick up people's emotions in conversations. They are the best listeners of all the signs. In fact, it is extraordinarily easy for them to get "lost" in the other person's expression and opinion. For a while, they can almost lose their own opinions and completely step into the other's shoes.


You can count on Mercury in Cancer to come up with information, culled from their outstanding memory, that others have long forgotten.


Cancer communicators' style is to avoid arguments. But, make no mistake about it, they can provoke arguments easily. They do this in a subtle manner, then get hurt when others argue with them.


Mercury in Cancer is generally attracted to poetry, archaic language, expressions of yesteryear, and the like. Because they are so aware of others' emotions, they can be somewhat diplomatic in their dealings with people.


These people appear to take their time when they make a decision, and even when they form an opinion. They need to step away from others, and be alone with themselves to explore all that they have absorbed. They ask for time to stew over new information. They are impressionable, and the smart ones know it. Withdrawing into themselves helps them to discriminate.


These people can get frustrated with facts-only thinking processes. They also dislike distractions when they are talking or thinking. They need to focus on the matter at hand in order to come up with the best solutions to problems.


Mercury in Cancer can be very effective speakers and writers, especially if they have Leo or Gemini Suns. Their ability to "feel out" their audience is extraordinary. Also, they are able to present things concisely, yet powerfully.


If your Mercury is in Aries or Libra, you may find some of your conversations with Mercury in Cancer natives are frustrating. (The feeling is mutual, by the way). Aries communicators get impatient with Cancer's slowness and indirect communication, while Libra communicators wonder why Cancer always seems to personalize what they say to the point of appearing like they have funnel vision. This latter is not always the case — Cancer communicators simply prefer to speak about the matter at hand, you and them, and not the rest of the world as Libra tends to do. Likewise, Mercury in Cancer can find Aries communicators rather brusque, and Libra communicators maddeningly detached or other-oriented.


Favorite expression: "I feel..."


Venus in Cancer


Love for Venus in Cancer is best when it is committed and rather predictable. These people are sensitive in love, even if their Sun sign is the more playful and outgoing signs of Gemini or Leo. You may even say their egos are a little underdeveloped when it comes to love, but they have a lot to give in return: namely, security, comfort, and care.


Venus in Cancer men and women show their love by caring for you. They pay more attention to your feelings than your words, and observe you rather carefully. They want a safe, solid relationship. They can be a little moody in love, and some go so far as giving silent treatments and engaging in pouting routines to get attention from their mate. They are turned off by anything impersonal, and too much rationalizing leaves them cold. They are not afraid of the emotional element of love (even if they have a Gemini Sun and appear flighty in other areas of life), but confrontations can be a little scary. Still, these lovers are always worried they'll be left high and dry. If you've hurt them, they'll have a hard time forgetting. Every so often, they'll retreat into themselves (not unlike a Crab), and it can be difficult to pull them out. This is when they use their extraordinary "nursing" abilities on themselves, instead of you...and you simply don't want that!


Pleasing Venus in Cancer involves lots of snuggling and sentimentality. Recognize their attachments to their family and home. Help them to feel confident with you—when they are fearful of being rejected, they can resort to some frustrating tactics to find out just how loved they are. Think about how a crab (the symbol of Cancer) moves towards its goal, and you will get a fair idea of Venus in Cancer's approach. Do your best to make them feel secure and cared for, and you will be rewarded with a patient, dependable, and loving mate.

Mars in Cancer


This position inclines toward passive-aggressiveness. These people seem to resist change and to shy away from direct confrontations. They need to feel secure before they act. As a result, they can appear rather slow at times. Their motto is "The best offence is defense". They may appear weak to some, but they can be very strong. Their strength lies in their tenaciousness.


Their sex drive can be very tied up with emotional need. At their best, they turn others on with a protective, almost therapeutic way about them. The protective nature of Cancer is best expressed when Mars in Cancer natives are turning the energy outward — when they are being the protectors of others. Turning it inwards is when there are problems. They must avoid over-sensitivity and self-protection when it comes to sex. Some Mars in Cancer people are especially turned on by the thought of creating a baby.


These people are threatened by indifference. They can be argumentative and manipulative. Their energy levels are variable, and they can appear to move rather slowly. They have defensive reactions and bursts of emotional displays when they feel cornered.
With reassurance and confidence, these natives are protective, helpful, and dependable in the long haul. They prefer to handle situations peacefully and humanely. (See also the Sexuality of Mars in Cancer).



Cancer Ascendant


These people come across as gentle creatures. There's something familiar about them — they're the guy or gal next door. When they enter a room, they don't walk in with a splash. Instead, they move to the sides and weave their way inwards. These people have a familiar feel to them. Because they are rather sensitive to their environment, they can get flustered easily, especially in public.


Their first instinct, when threatened or on unfamiliar ground, is to protect themselves. When new situations present themselves, they can immediately withdraw or act shy. Generally, these people come across as caring people. They seem quite sweet — even innocent. Usually, these people appear unassuming enough to be quite approachable. Some Cancer Ascendants, however, have retreated into themselves so much as to be quite the opposite.


Since Capricorn is on the Descendant, Cancer Ascendant people are looking for structure and security in their partner and their relationship. These people function best when their partner displays strength, financial and emotional stability, and know-how. In fact, many Cancer Ascendants prefer it when their relationship has well-defined rules. Security is the basic need, and they are generally more than willing to give up some personal freedom in order to get it. In some cases, Cancer Ascendant people can surprise their partners. Why? Because they come across as rather unassuming, family-oriented people. When it comes to marriage, they have a rather matter-of-fact, practical approach. More on Cancer Rising.

I am . . . Part 1

Fire Snake

23-Jan-1917--10-Feb-1918 - Element-Fire(-) 18-Feb-1977--6-Feb-1978 - Element-Fire(-)

The SNAKE - Chinese name: SHÉ Ranking Order - Sixth Hours ruled by the Snake: 9am to 11am

Direction of this sign - South-Southeast Season and principle month: Spring - May Fixed Element: Fire

Personality-wise, Snakes are not people who can be easily ignored. They possess a strong,charismatic presence and a charm which has been described by some astrologers as "bewitching" or "beguiling." With a penetrating eye and attention to the desires of their conquests, they're known as experts in the art of seduction.

People born during the Year of the Snake are said to be endowed with wisdom and with deep philosophical understanding. They are born thinkers who excel in finding solutions to complex problems. In matters of business they can be shrewd, biding their time in making a deal only to strike like lightning and make a killing when they judge the moment is right. Thus in life, the majority of Snakes are financially successful and generally lucky with money; their fortunes very much depend on their careful and considered judgment in financial affairs and on their intuitive feelings in business negotiations. These are clever, intelligent people who take time to formulate their ideas and opinions. Even when they are at their laziest, their minds are working overtime, laying their schemes and hatching their plots for the future.

Snakes are wise, philosophical, calm, and understanding. They are receptive and physically alluring, often fickle. Success and fame come easily to Snakes. They can be treacherous creatures who delight in intrigue and who wouldn't think twice about double-crossing someone in order to save their own skins. Their calculating natures will never forgive or forget a slight. They can be lazy and self-indulgent. Their innate elegance can at times be ostentatious.

Subtle, secretive, elusive and enigmatic, there is an element of the mysterious that surrounds the Snake personality. Perhaps this is due to their intuitive faculties, or perhaps it is a consequence of their strong inner spirituality which can manifest itself in an interest in religion, mysticism or the occult.

A Snake can be counted on to carry a project through to the end. Their decisions are quick and firm, but they are formed by first impressions, on sympathies and feelings logically assembled in their minds -- rather than by simple facts alone. The Snake will fight and plod for anything they believe in and allow nothing to stand in his or her way. At ease in all circumstances and possessing uncommon self-discipline, the Snake achieves great heights and honors in his or her career, enjoying the well deserved respect of an admiring entourage.

Snakes are a bit tight when it comes to lending money, though their sympathy for others often leads them to offer help. The help will be in kind rather than in cash, however; the Snake is freer with himself than he is with his money! The fatal flaw in the Snake's character is, in fact, a tendency to exaggerate -- in helping friends as with everything else. If a Snake does somebody a favor, he becomes possessive toward them in an odd way, so that finally he is more a hindrance than a help. The snake's serpentine nature leads him to coil and cling to the point where he can suffocate the object of his attention. Think twice then, before you accept an offer of help from a Snake; you could regret it!

In money matters, the Snake has good luck -- he simply doesn't have to worry about it. He will always be able to get money when he needs it, and he feels this so strongly that it has never bothered him at all. Once he has got it, though, he's a little stingy; that's why he never lends. In old age he can become quite miserly.

Snakes are notoriously good looking and like to project the best image of themselves that they can. Both men and women of the sign have elegant and stylish taste in clothes; the men are sexy and always have a bit of the dandy about them, and the ladies are seductive and rave over smart accessories. Whether in looks or in circumstances, Snakes simply have a magical knack of making the very best out of the most mediocre.

In Japan, those wishing to pay a woman a compliment and acknowledge her beauty are accustomed to say: "My dear, you are a real snake!" -- a pleasantry most likely to be misinterpreted in the West.

As with real snakes, which hibernate in the cold season and come out when it's warm, Snake people shine in the hot months. And the Snake born at midday in the heat of a tropical summer will be happier than one born in the middle of an icy night in winter. The destiny of those born under this sign is so sensitive to the inclemencies of climate that the almanac warns Snakes born on a stormy day that they will face danger throughout their lives.

Intense and masterful, active in mind and body, he performs energetically and may have great public appeal and charisma. Although he may solicit opinions of others, he is suspicious by nature, having faith only in himself. He has a strong, almost obsessive desire for fame, money and power.

Friends

You really find out who your real friends are when you are in time of need. They are the ones who call to check on you. They are the ones who call you back. They are the ones are there for you.

It is very interesting, at Zappos they promote this family atmosphere. They want every one to get a long, hang out with each other. Talk to each other outside of work. Do things with each other outside of work. And for the most part people do it as long as they work there. But as soon as you don't work there anymore, no one calls you back. No one is there for you.

It is interesting to see how things out in the end.

First Date Good Byes

Ok Men, when you are saying good bye at the end of a date, specially the first date. The following are some rules and guidelines:

Not Interested Signs:

Not saying goodbye
Shaking hands goodbye
Giving a girl a half hug
Kiss on the forehead (she will think you think of her only as a friend or a little sister).
Don't call her at all or wait a week or two
Don't try to see her

Might be Interested:

Full hug
Kiss on the cheek

You are Interested in her:

Kiss her on the mouth (or at least try to)
Hold her hand (or at least try to)

Warning:

Be careful if you try to sleep (have sex) with her on the first time hanging out she will you only wanted to have sex with her and nothing else. This includes just making out with her all night.

Also, ignoring her is horrible, if you are not interested and she doesn't get the hint, be a man and tell her. Not knowing hurts more than anything else. There is no need to be a jerk or an ass about it. Be honest an open and just say it.

Please note: if you just want to be friends or friends with benefits, be open and tell her. Otherwise you will confuse her and she won't know what to think.

Also, just because you paid for dinner and/or a movie or the whole date in general. The girl doesn't owe you anything at all. She doesn't owe you a kiss, sex or anything. It was you being nice to her and letting her know there may be a chance you are into her.

If you want to get with a girl and date her or something, don't use code words like: 'I want to get to know you better', she will likely think you just want to be friends. Just tell her you would like date her.

If you want her to know you are interested in her tell her. Talk to her. Say hi when you see her. You don't have to have a full conversation every time you see her. Just say hi and let her know you see her.

FYI:

If you ask a girl out at the last minute don't be hurt or mad if she says no or already has plans. Next time ask earlier.

Also, if you change plans on her at the last minute don't be hurt if she isn't dressed correctly or if she cancels on you. Not all woman are willing to do everything and anything at a drop of a dime.

So Far Today

So I went to the doctors this morning. I had another biopsy this morning. This one was on my thigh. The results from the biopsy of my breast a few weeks ago is good. It was just a mole. It changed color, shape and placement but it looks like the only reason why is because I gained weight.

I Love . . . Part 15

The Avatar: The Last Airbender!

I want to own the whole series. It is an amazing story. I would recommend to anyone who has children 8 years old and older. I don't know if the kids under 8 would get it. It has the greatest story line and life lessons ever!

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Avatar:_The_Last_Airbender

The Latest

So I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow to get my stitches removed from my biopsy. I have another doctor's appointment on Tuesday with my sleep doctor to see what the results are. I also have a doctor's appointment on Tuesday with my regular doctor.

I am getting a roommate, finally found someone I am willing to try. Now I have to go through all of my stuff this week so he can move into to own room with my junk all over.

I am painting and putting up shelves to put some of my things I don't want to get rid of.

I have an appointment with an employment lawyer on August 4th. It is $200.00 for the consultation but I think it will be worth it. Or at least I hope so.

I am now looking for a bankruptcy lawyer.

I got a call back from one of the places I applied to this week. I hope it pans out. So keep your fingers crossed for me.

Sleep Test

So I spent last night at the sleep study place. I was interesting. They have 4 rooms and 2 techs. They put all these wires all over you. Legs, waist, chest and several on the head. They also put 2 belts on you to track your breathing. I asked lots of questions. The tech was very willing to answer all the questions I had that he could.

I had a really hard time falling asleep and staying asleep. I have a fear that the test may be inconclusive. I hope its not. I have a follow up appointment on the 22nd at 9 am. I will tell you more when I know more.

Wish me luck.

The Man I Want Physically

This is things I would like a man to look like, this is what I am interested in:

1. Tall (taller than me, preferably at least 6' tall)
2. Light eyes
3. Dark Hair
4. I don't care about skin tone or color
5. Board shoulders (boarder than mine)
6. Thick bone structure (this is rare but I love it)
7. Muscles but not so much you look like a monster or a guerrilla
8. Trim (a little extra weight is cool).
9. There is this line men get between the hip and the leg that is extremely sexy
10. Has confidence in what he does

These are just physical things I am into in a man. There are exceptions to all the rules.

My Dating Rules

I wanted to repost this one:

This are my personal rules, rules I live by:

1. No Co-workers
2. No Married Men (this includes men who live with their girlfriends or have girlfriends)
3. No Men who cheat (I don't put up with this behavior and once a cheater always a cheater)
4. No Men who hit, grab or 'Man handle' me in any other way (no excuses)
5. I prefer men who are my height or taller than me
6. A man I can talk to (they have to be able to carry on a conversation)
7. A man with manners!
8. No Men who are separated from their wife or going through a divorce (they can always get back together). They need to have the divorce finalized to date but I we can be friends until then.
9. A man who is open and honest with me
10. A man who has goals
11. A man who enjoys what he does for a living (or working towards that)
12. A man who is patient with me
13. A man who wants kids (one day) and likes children
14. A man who wants to get married (one day, not right now at least not in the beginning of the relationship)
15. I prefer a man who gives me flowers (but not necessary, I can always get them for myself)
16. A man with a driver's license
17. A man with a job

I know there are a lot of rules but there is always an exception to the rule. I will give almost any man a chance if they have the guts to ask me out. And if I give you my phone number it means I am giving you a chance. So call, just don't take my number and never call or ignore me.
Also, if you do get the guts to ask me out, please talk to me. If you don't I think you are not interested in me anymore and I will move on.

What I Need in A Man

What I Need (like) in a Man at this Time is the Following Qualities:

1. Patient
2. Honest
3. Loyal
4.Faithful
5. Pays Attention To Me
6. Wants to go out and do things like eat out, movies, etc
7. Likes to stay at home and do things like paint, watch movies, etc
8. Likes to make me food
9. Likes me making food for them
10. Understanding
11. Drinks Socially Only (or at least doesn't mind me drinking socially)
12. Doesn't Smoke
13. Likes Animals and Pets
14. Willing to kill bugs for me
15. Takes the Lead when Dancing (Likes to Dance)
16. Takes the Lead in Bed
17. Wants Kids (already has kids is ok too)
18. Is Passionate about Something
19. Likes Cartoons and Anime
20. Likes Movies
21. Likes playing boardgames and video games are cool too
22. Willing to be adventurous every now and then
23. Trusting and Trust Worthy
24. Doesn't cheat and doesn't do things that would make you think he is cheating
25. Likes Music, listening to music, playing music, etc
26. Likes to Dance or at least doesn't mind dancing with me
27. Can carry on a Conversation
28. Has a dream, a goal in life and is working towards it
29. Likes Tattoos (at least doesn't mind that I have them / likes my tattoos)
30. Wants to better himself and in turn I want to better myself for him
31. Speaks another language
32. Has some kind of education
33. Likes to learn
34. Likes to share
35. Likes to take care of himself and me
36. Picks up after himself
37. Willing to help with food/house
38. Easy to get along with
39. Has a job that supports himself
39. Not into any illegal drug/activities
40. Likes to talk to me


These may change as I change in life but for now this is what I want.

Sleeping Issues

So I have been having a lot of health issues. They have been going on for years, not knowing what is wrong with me. Going to the doctors all the time being told everything is fine. Then finding out I have Chrons disease and Endrometrois. I have bad allergies, bad skin, easily sunburned skin and unknown bruises. I wake up with bruises don't know where they come from. I am now often waking up with headaches, stomach aches (including nausea) and now I am waking up dazed and confused (like my blood had been cut off to long). I am having a very hard time getting out of bed. I am sleeping through my alarms. Having issues getting out of bed. Doing nothing all day long. I have always had a hard time falling asleep but now having issues with staying asleep. I have had issues with staying asleep before but nothing like it is now.

Now, I am doing a sleep study before my insurance runs out. It is going on tonight. Wish me luck.

Hancock

I saw the movie Hancock with Will Smith and friends when it cam out not to long ago. It was really really good. It is not what you think it about. It is a good story. And I would take children at least 13 years and older to it. There are a lot of jokes that you need to take at face value. They can be taken several ways.

They left it open for more. I would watch it first before you take children under 13 to it.

http://www.sonypictures.com/movies/hancock/

Today

I was fired from Zappos.com for not being good enough.

Even though I worked hard did my hours, did more a than anyone else on my team. I picked up the slack and worked more hours without help from any of them because they are too good to help or too busy to help.

Whatever.

I Love . . . Part 14

Beyond the Zone Color Jamz

I love the raspberry color. The bubble gum color washed out to quickly. The purple one was fun too. I am tempted to try blue and /or red next.

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My Birthday

So my 31st birthday is coming up. I want to have a party because my 30th birthday I had surgery. I just don't know what to do.

I like bowling, movies, hanging out and talking. I know we can hang out and do things at Road Runner off Eastern and Pebble. I just don't how much the drinks are there. I was also thinking about going to Sam's Town or Boulder Station. There is the place I drive past all the time called Kegger Keg or something like that. Maybe Remdey's or Inn Zone off Eastern & St Rose.

I don't know. We will see. I need to make a decision this weekend and send out invites and stuff.

Biopsy

So I had another biopsy today. It's my 3rd one. I have had my thyroid biopsied, my colon biopsied and today my breast. But today's was for skin cancer a basil cell (I'm sure I spelled it wrong).

I have stitches on my breast and it itched so bad today. I was cleaning up the front area and the secert hallway, putting away the Christmas in July raffle prizes and sweated. So the badged fell off. I came home and cleaned it. I had to shorten the thread because it was poking me.

I also started 2 new prescriptions. They are expensive. I don't know how I am going to pay for drugs for the rest of the year. I have the FSA thing with ADP and I put away $900.00 but that is almost gone.

I am so frustrated. I don't know what I am going to do for the rest of the year. Well anyways, life will go on. I will figure out something.